On the 25th of June, I met in an American airport, a young man from Iraq who told me the year before he had been held captive in a one-meter square cell for the entire year. I asked him what he wanted if he could have anything in this world, thinking a car or a house. His first response was that he wanted governments run by good people. I asked him what a second wish would be. To that he said he wanted through science, to develop technology so economies were not based on petroleum. With him was a young man from Chad. When I asked him what he would have if money were no object, his reply was that he wanted to return to Africa to cure disease. I too, have my own dreams of making a profound contribution, but I need lots of money to do so. I would contribute to disease control in Africa and I would fund education for the young Iragi as long as he chose to study. I pray constantly for this infusion of cash for myself, for this young man from Chad and for the young Iraqi among others. Each of us has a dream....

Well Steve,once again I am amazed at the accuracy of your forecasts. Things altered yesterday- in a small but very positive way. Last night I went to see the Age of Stupid film which our local Friends of the Earth had been planning as a public viewing for some time. After the film a number of us met up for a drink, and it was great to meet some new likeminded people-(Green Party candidates). Another member of Friends of the Eearth who I have known for a while suggested meeting up socially- I was pleasantly surprised, and that really cheered me up... so like you say little bits of magic they still exist in this crazy world.But if only they existed for the future of the planet. In the film comments that you have made Steve regarding famine(and other leading environmentalists)-the film supports this view that will happen sooner rather than later.The rest of the film made me numb- my last thoughts were what future for our children and grand children. For a long time I have been aware of the hold of the oil companies over governments, but the film really brought this into sharp relief- how cruel they can be to the people of the areas where they start oilfields; and also how little they care about the environment with these places burning off all the excess waste,if we stand any chance of limmiting any more environmental damage these are the people that have to be overcome. Then there is the biggest problem, apparently now as a world we have to sign up to stopping 80% of carbon emissions by 2013- it will be intersting to see if this really does happen at Copenhagen...

I appreciate the positive messages... but sometimes too many new beginnings can loose their charm!... sometimes one wonders why so many frequent and constant endings are necessary.. I must say right now, I am tired to work at building a house (metaphorically speaking), where the foundations took 30 years to build, and I never seem to be able to complete the first floor every few months to see it crashing down to the floor again..... In each instance, there is nothing I could have done, I believe, that could have been 'right'... The new moon is coming and although I try hard, I feel like it is a full moon again, more like another eclipse actually, where ground zero is harder to face.. hurting despite wishing to upheld dreams, visions and the willingness to do all it takes... Why is it if we have so many dreams and we are all so committed to them, that we seem to 'fail' so miserably at making a real difference? .. Today, I am starting to feel that I cannot continue giving unless something comes back my way..... it is grinding me down.

Yes I am aware of the chances of change that is for the taking, it seems that the 'dream it' part is very relevant...I am having to consciously 'make' it happen with my mind...if that makes sense to any of you out there AND allow it to come in as reality.