I certainly hope the last 3 years will fade. They have been merciless in their unrelenting pressure. It's been focused in work but it's affected absolutely everything. I've had no social life, no holidays, no fun whatsoever, just work, work, work, work, work, work. Oh, and no sign of anything I wanted for myself - not even the tiniest thing! Have addressed some very major issues recently, which in itself has been an overwhelming 6 month process and should help a lot of the structural issues, but I'd really like a holiday now! Pretty please?!! Richard x

My heart truly goes out to all of you who are being put through the mincer at the present time. The determination & the unbowed spirit among all who gather here is incredible. I have stared into the abyss more times than I care to mention & even now there are moments when the 'black dog' threatens my resolve. But I will not be bowed & like so many of you, I want to shout; 'I've come this far, through so much total crap, you're NOT breaking my spirit now. F**K OFF!' I guess I'm at the point where I've survived swimming the channel, dodging ferries, storms & anything else capable of killing me & I'm currently breathless & exhausted on the other side. To all of you, you WILL get through this mess. Battered & bruised for sure, but the struggle will make the eventual peace & calm feel amazing. Sarah xx

Sitting here with a culminating time which started on Tuesday 13/07 in the afternoon. My daughter developed a virulent sudden tooth infection.. after agonising pain, a trip to A&E, two lots of antibiotics, a day away from being ready to have this tooth extracted, she has develop an excruciatingly painful soar esophagus (!!) which after talking to a couple of health advice over the phone, could be due to ONE bacteria (resistant to the antibiotic) travelling and lodging there.... I had never encountered this before...I have to stop the antibiotics a day away from the end of the course... I doubt the tooth can be extracted tomorrow... And while money gets irrelevant, having a sufficient income or totally free healthcare makes a big difference in such situation!.. worth remembering... she is losing pay, I have no money (unemployed), I had to put private dental care on my credit card because couldn't get an emergency NHS dentist after A&E.... (now I have managed to find one but another change in the middle of all these problems!)...So in the UK... please please, do stand to protect the NHS from privatisation (by stealth as is the case RIGHT NOW)!! Without it, this episode which is already getting bad, would be.... horrendous...We are both being hit here.. I am an early Aries and she is a Capricorn with a pack of planets all in her first house... For the first time (I have weathered most health problems, troubles alone), I wish there was somebody to come and stay with us for a couple of days... or more.. just to get some support through this. I am finding it really hard. I am lacking sleep caring through the first 3 nights, just to soothe her pain... Now it is getting me emotionally... I am very concerned for her.. I have to deal with an almost (neurotic) feeling of fear at the pit of my stomach. I am not fit to be a carer, yet there is no choice. I'd better go... I have one hour before next doctor's appointment.

Has been nothing but work for me, (and mine)too...going to try and get a couple of holidays tho, starting in September - definitely feel at the start of a new phase- moods fluctuating, like the weather, sunny and confident one day, a bit doubtful the next - but definitely and finally more confident in who I am, and what I have to offer...and did I really hear on the news that China also now have a massive oil spill??

I realised a little while ago, that possibly the best way to make a positive difference in the world, is to take responsibility for yourself & your own behaviour first & foremost. Be kind, considerate, loving, positive (as best you can), tolerant, strong & forgiving (as best you can). Work on your own emotional blocks & healing first & your positive energy will benefit the people you interact with, without you realising. Just smiling at a stranger in the street makes a difference. One small moment of connection & warmth might just restore someone's faith in humanity & then they can pass on that energy. I think hope is the greatest gift one can give anyone. If we aim to live in our own maginificence (to be happy with our lives just as they are at that moment), then we allow those around us to do the same. I don't mean that from a ego perspective, I just mean, be the best you can, with what you've got & this will have an effect on the people round you. A small pebble sends out far reaching ripples. The storms are raging around our very heads in these tumultuous times. If you can find a few minutes to meditate while out walking, shrink the earth in your imagination & cover it with a blanket of love, calm & hope. Just know that you can help change the collective energy in small ways. Be kind to yourself first & don't panic. Oh yeah & if the inner rage does start to bubble, take yourself off for a good shout in private, you'll feel so much better!! Sarah xx

Yep, I'm an 18th of the monther and it's been hellish since late March. The feeling of tension, indecision, fear, swinging from one decision to another, mood up and down, extreme anxiety to exaltation all in the same day, rejection from the one I loved, children messing up their graduaute year, business closing down. It's all way, waaaay too much to deal with. Steve if there's only another month to go I'll stick it out but if this is to continue I'm off. The last 3 years have been so, so difficult, emotionally, but these last few months have been the pimple on the boil as you say. I need a long, long holiday. x L

I quite agree, Sarah - hope and friendliness are just as contagious as fear and aggression. Personally, I still feel like I'm in the eye of the storm, but messages like the one in the following link make me feel more a little more confident about the future. Do have a look at it if you have the time. Michael http://vimeo.com/12093101

I seem to be forever waiting for a time in my life when things seem simple. I know it's a naieve outlook, because life is always full of challenges, but why must they feel so exhausting...is that the nature of the beast, or am i simply too over-emotional and unable to approach things a little more rationally??? I'm a Scoprio born on the 21st of the month. I hope for the day that I have a wonderful home, lovely wife, a job that whilst it has its challenges, is one that I have passion about...but a lot of it seems so far away. My marriage ended at the begining of 2008 and whilst the [very painful, distructive and exhausting] divorce finished in January this year, the financial fall out has been significant. I feel as if I MAY be at the end and soon to find some peace though; I have a wonderful partner, very much in love, we're moving in together when the house is finally sold. The relationship hasn't always been easy as two divorcees sometimes allow scars from previous relationships to make them fearful of new relationships...but we have grown strong together which is wonderful. That said there are still so may exhausting areas of my life...the house sale has dragged on for months, my financial situation worsens, I have a well paid job, but yet I feel so unfullfilled and I am too scared to look for anything else because a) due to my reliance on a good salary, I'll simply move into a nother job which will pull me down within 3 months or b) too scared to follow my passions because of my financial situation (need to pay child maintenance etc). TO top it off I have completely re-designed my relationship with my family who for so many years has been a source of emotional turmoil and confidence bashing. It's wrong to compare but I look at friends and colleagues and they seem to have found their karma, with themselves, wioth work with family...but particularly with work. I feel like an over qualified fish out of water!! I am however approaching this in the only way I know how....keep your head down and make small steps towards my goal (if only I knew what the goal was!!). Have agreed with my partner that I'll move in slowly over the next few weeks regardless of the state of sale of the house and have just updated my CV in order to put myself out there and look at options...meanwhile, at work, I'll keep the low profile and keep trudging on through...whilst at the same time, trying to think of what inspires me and how on earth I'll get to where I want to be. Hard hard slog. Would just love to see the end of July and start to live life with hope, passion, happiness and light heartedness...

To the poster at 10:39 - I don't usually offer unsolicited advice, but as you seem to be in a similar head state to the one I was in 8 years ago, I would suggest the following: a) Get a reading from a good astrologer - now! b) Grit your teeth and keep that shoulder to the wheel. Good luck! Michael

Thanks for that Sarah. Like attracts like, and too much talk of fear and angst attracts just that. If something is going to happen and we are full of fear, it doesn't stop that thing from happening; but if you're full of fear you perhaps aren't in the best state to deal with it. Fear after all, is absense of positivity. Being positive doesn't mean being naive. It means knowing that no matter what happens, if you keep positive, have a heart full of love and a head full of hope, you'll likely react better than being full of fear. A positive approach is a higher vibration than a negative approach. Love to you all.

Steve you're so right.....everything you have said today i'm feeling. Still in deep thought....couldn't sleep last night and got a nervy horrible feeling in the pit of my gut. Really don't like this :( Its also funny that you mention Mars and anger. It may be Mars but I went to work yesterday and had a go at two people....quick and straight to the point without no hesitation. Usually when someone takes the p.ss, i'm very polite and make out its ok...(i'm a cancerian!!) but not yesterday....put both in their place. Loved it!!

That's really interesting Steve, my Mum's alzheimer's began to get really bad about 3 years ago and the money for care got close to running out. Then she needed to be moved into a nursing home in feb 09. She's 21st capricorn with leo rising, and she's always been an angry woman, so the stuff about mars is spot on. Alzheimer's intensified the anger especially in the early days, but thankfully she's calmer now her mind has gone completely. I've kind of put my life on hold for her waiting for the inevitable and like L (9.56) I can stick it out a bit longer but am at the end of everything, tethers, savings (Can't work and be there not with M.E) and also tethers. Interestingly now I've had an offer for her house and got a bit of benefit for her I feel like things are slowly unsticking. I just want it to be over, for her to be with my Dad again, and for her to start this last great adventure. Here I go banging on about it again! So thanks Steve, you help me maintain a sense of calm (very important with dementia patients) and to everyone who blogs, I take heart in your words of wisdom too, even though we talk about different things, often the wish for the outsome is the same. Mandyx

Born on the 20th October, my nightmare started at the end of 2007, when my partner of 8 years, cleared our joint bank account, ran up a large debt on my credit card, left the house to take his suits to the dry cleaners and never came back. Consequently I was left in a rented house I could not afford, no job, no money and lots of debt. I have worked and worked physically and emotionally for two and half years to try and get back on my feet. A long hard struggle, but finally feel that I am getting somewhere, but Oh for some respite! and a holiday, now there's a novelty. Non the less, still stay positive, try to be forgiving and although poor in many respects, much richer in so many ways..... Not quite sure what Saturn has in store for me, but bring it on! I have come this far and not giving up now. L xxxxxx

I had an amazing uplifting dream I thought I'd share with all of you. In the dream my arms and legs were being woven in with those of all the people around me and we were moving as one, feeling as one, and even talking as one. I remember thinking (with my rational mind), ooh don't do that, I have a dodgy knee - but I felt no pain. In fact I felt amazing, breathing and thinking with everyone else. I woke up laughing, and had the sentence 'putting you back together' pulsing through my head. I feel amazing. I think 'the weave' may be painful for some, but just keep putting one foot in front of the other. All is well.

Yes, yes indeed, the last few weeks in and around me has been so much turmoil. Bankruptcy, re-possession, violent attacks from loved ones. Someone awaiting sentancing on very serious charges. Horrible scenes for neighbours at the weekend. Yet amongest all this horror and drama there has been some wonderful surprising turns. Those in the thick of it, firing line have kept there calm, cool. Showed uncharted dignity and grace to walk away. Not getting drawn into bitter counter attacks. Lets hope this is the way this can go, even out there upon the worlds stage.

My journey up hill began last year and has gradually intensified. Right now I feel like I have to make the choice to be principled or pragmatic in my work situation. Lots has changed in the last few months and things now seem to be coming to a head. Others feel similarly. They're definitley stewing.I'm expecting something to happen, but don't know what or when. Seeing lots of synchronicity. Key people seem to pop up in unlikely places. I've never experienced anything like this and hope I never will. Thank you for your post Steve. It's respite from the madness out there.

oh thanks Circle Mates. Thanks Sarah for mentioning the inner bubbles of anger. Started to feel some of those... and I have it way easier than what I'm reading here. The very best to all and thanks Steve, bobbi

Interesting. I woke up today feeling more calm and sure of my self for the first time since Hurricane Katrina. Like I know that things are going to eventually work out for the better...of course knowing Saturn is out of Virgo may be what's allowing me to feel psychicly (if that's a word) less "constipated", for lack of a better word... Thanks for your perspective. You've gotten me through a lot these past few years Respectfully and grateful, Anne in New Orleans

Richard (above) is soooo right, unrelenting or what? No holidays, days off, work, work, work.........but having said that I feel as though I've been squeezed through a process and dare I say 'forced' to make decisions and I cannot wait for this Virgo episode to be over. Perhaps then I can get these decisions in place and feel my life opening out rather than spinning down into ever diminishing circles. The end of life as I've known it for the past several years actually in terms of stress and frustration will come as a relief. If I drop off the edge of the planet now it will not come as a surprise, as I seem to have increasingly been clinging onto some vestige of sanity and structures made out of chewing gum. It was that weird today I was feeling or kind of hearing, a hum, and had this picture in my mind of a multidimensional framework, like exotic scaffolding made out of light framing the planet. Mind you I am so stressed and not sleeping properly that my senses have probably gone out of alignment and need re-calibrating. It's all good Steve - it's going to be in Libra. Well it's ok from my point of view, I've got Mars / Saturn in Libra nataly, cause of lots of frustration but the potential to harness that cutting energy into something more constructive: process. Mmmmm, maybe a teensie weensie bit of anger........but hey, I'm still here after all these years. It's going to happen anyway, but it's only a consolidation, I feel, of the undercurrents which in my view are in no way all bad. Actually I believe there's a lot going on that's neither specifically good or bad but new/different and gaining ground at exraordinary speed, especially in the realm of communications, phones, broadband, blue ray, skype, inter-webbing things. There's a load of positive stuff going on too and it'll become more established. Blessings x Ella

hey and thanks Bobbi. You took the words right out of my mouth about having it easier... me too. Michael- nice video. I've just finished watching it. Paints a pretty clear picture from a little different angle - worth the watch folks. Sarah- always a pleasure to read your posts, so positive and loving. You do yourself proud. I agree with 11:20 about staying positive. It ties in to what Steve is saying about not losing the plot. Keep your eyes on the prize and don't get yourself caught up in the madness. It's good sound advise for these times. To my fellow Cancerian friend at 11:25. I did the same thing about a week ago. It just happened. I'd had quite enough, let myself react and this time the outcome felt solid and guilt free. We talking confidence here? Lastly, thanks Ella from yesterday's post for mentioning the slow motion effect you've experienced. I've had that happen as well many times. You seem to step out of time and become an observer to what's happening around you. A few seconds seems like minutes. Not sure what that is or how it happens but you've set my mind at ease somewhat to think it's not just me. Surf's up everyone... and a busy posting day! wow

Hi Steve. Just wondered how Mr Birthday Matcher is getting on after his operation? I hope he is doing well. Love to you both. Kate (ex-pat)

What we all really need now is a healthy large dose of that Great British Bulldog Spirit ! "Never give in, never give in, never; never; never; never - in nothing, great or small, large or petty - never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense." “Danger - if you meet it promptly and without flinching - you will reduce the danger by half. Never run away from anything. Never!” “When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened” ...and "if you are going through hell, keep going." KBO

Am having a very strange day. My physical balance has gone haywire (falling about in public - aargh!) Oddly it feels as though its a symptom of a spiritual, emotional and mental shift to a new framework. This energy feels though I have to let this adjustment happen, go with the flow while keeping my focus. Anyone else feel like this? Or maybe I'm just weird. Am just sending my support and most positive wishes to those of you who have been having such dreadful times. And along with Kate add my best wishes for Mr Birthday Matcher after his op.

Thank you 15.30 for the time suspension experience-sharing! and to all others - thanks to Steve for this meeting place. My goodness these are difficult times? but isn't it good to know we are not alone? Whether we're knitting our limbs together as mentioned in the dream above, or not, we're certainly weaving something of value. Bless you Mr Steve for making it possible, xx

Six weeks from now hey steve it will be all a fading memory of the past five years of hell, Boy I really hope that is the case for us mere mortals.?I think we have the short straw down here myself than the otherside! Don't think I can take this unknowing period of the direction of my life much longer. Trying so hard to stay positive & remain strong but have felt very low on energy lately and low in myself. I feel I have no control of my life anymore and am losing the will remain optimistic of late. It all kicked for me in late may I was finally moving forward & then suddnely back against a brick wall again, bingo not moving forward. I can't seem to keep a grip on fate or destiny, don't seem to have any control on what is meant to be anymore....Its as if the inside of me has truly died & I am completely numb. Its So unlike me being a very positive spirit & wanting so bad to just live life to the max! I am however beginning to wonder very strongly when I can actually start just living the life I truly deserve to live without any more suffering and sorrow of the last five years.......Roll on September please.