Thinking is bad for you . . . . . I think! No worries Steve, I'm too worn out to read anyway. Ron (M19)

A manic month to be sure but fascinating nothing the less and reflected in all these posting. You all give me so much to think about and reflect on in my own life and I am thankful for that. Ron (M19) nice to see you back... Rob

A quote from my Druid book..."I watch the star to guide me home, I found my soul and spirits rest,I travelled far across the foam, There is no ending to my quest... Just had to add this, I find it incredibly uplifting..

Good morning all...I am tired out too, although feel better today. It is not ordinary tiredness for me- it all started in April, and has been months of drained exhaustion, although some days are better than others.I think the major struggle of everything thats happened since 2005 has finally caught up with me- but having said that Im not giving into it.I am determined somehow even though I feel so fragile to somehow create the future I dream of. Its strange Ive been thinking of a thought for the day on here about eight points in the year- and for me all major beginnings and endings in my life over the last 30 years have been July, August also and October-with one ending in September- isnt that strange... Just looked at the astrology of next week- it looks formidable- I think I will get in a teapot and hide like the dormouse until September.Im still laughing over whoever wrote that clever blog about Alice in Wonderland on here.. Thoughts from a Pisces March 20th.

I think that it is fair to say that yesterday felt like a 'shift'. I have crossed some kind of boundary, not sure what it is, but it is taking me to the roots of my personal and social consciousness. It remains what I know is 'the best of me'. This is the 'platform'. It is strong, it has a voice and when I use it, I understood yesterday that it can resonate with others. After months of grafting staying on the top of policy changes, up-to-date with events, collating data, thinking through... it seems that accumulation has given potency to this voice. It is somewhat strange that with such strong feeling I tend to lack confidence. Yesterday I spend a day (starting in the early hours of a sleepless night)posting on the Guardian website. At first the push for doing so was anger and frustration and then the shift occurred... as my postings (one in particular) seemed to be scored ('recommended') by a growing number of readers ticking over the 100 mark. Then I understood that it was time to pull back from the drive of anger and frustration and to draw from the accumulated knowledge and skills that I have painstakingly acquired over the last 20 years and make them count, put them to service. It is this that gives the power to my communication as they translate my deep innate knowledge into 'analysis' and a projection of the challenges at stake. The anger and frustration came from knowing without being able to express. Now, I can state the case.... I have walked the long road from no education to self-realisation, but I have just only open the door that can let me cross the threshold to the future. I know now... but that's all. Beyond that point is uncertainty still. [August 1, 2010].

Dear Pisces, we are ALL in Alice in Wonderland.Have you seen the Red Queen? All temper, flying high in the Glass Ceiling. How about a White Rabbit, scared of his own shadow, muttering to himself all the time? Then there is the White Knight, with everything including the kitchen sink on his horse-prepared, but still fumbling, bumbling along, innocently childish. The Cheshire Cat, always right, charming grin, watch out -might bite. A caterpillar, looking over the edge of the mushroom it was perched on with a supercilious expression on its face, asking Alice "WHO are YOU"?(I actually had someone ask me this when I went to a new job in a different area of a factory). I have seen so many of these characters in real life. The Mad Hatter was one of my bosses.What appears to be real is not, what is real can become mist,and everything seems reversed.For me, my alter ego is Alice, and I never cease to wonder at the things and people that appear in my life.